Sarah Xerta of the Nostrovia! Poetry chapbook contest has shared a powerful guided meditation which you can read for free. Check this out!!!
I look up the etymology of the word No and see it has two elements, ne and aiw, where ne cognates “no, not” and aiw cognates “vital force, life, long life, eternity.” I think about my NNNNNN and OOOOOO/ the line of bricks, the clouds around my ankles/ and feel validated by language/ know I can’t have one without the other/ know that in some ways he was right/ in some ways I will never fully escape him/ in some ways it will always be about him/ this is what happens when someone’s been inside you/ when you go on living anyway.